Shaken not Stirred

Some people enjoy sitting on chairs that massage, laying on mats that massage...at one point in my life I also enjoyed these things they seemed so relaxing, not anymore.....let me explain...before going on my medication for Parkinsons I would get internal tremors.  At first they were mild and would come and go especially when I was at rest...then they started to intensify to the point where I felt like my insides were being shaken with great force, I could feel them but if someone else put their hand on my body they could not feel anything. It was especially hard at night to get any sleep..I felt extremely scared (at this time I had no idea I had PD) I was afraid to go to sleep, I was afraid I would not wake up.  As time went on my internal tremors were closing in on me, I was at my breaking point and I truly believe God knew this for the tremors were becoming constant.  Can you imagine feeling like your insides were shaking 24/7? At this point I told my husband "I can not live like this". Thank God my diagnosis came shortly after.  Within 4 days of starting my meds I felt like my old self, the internal tremors had subsided about 90%, my sense of smell returned and I felt like I had a fighting chance.  I could not believe the difference this little pill made.  Not all Parkinson patients have internal tremors most have external tremors only.  At this point I had very few external tremors and they were very mild. It has been a good year and a half since starting my meds and for the most part I have felt pretty good. Recently I have started to lose my balance, not all the time just now and again and my internal tremors have picked up a little. So as I have said before everyone is different even though we are fighting the same disease.